Life is something that you can either judge or not. The life of a person has a lot of determinants. Like psychology and sociology, it can be a sum up of you and your surrounding. Judgement is relative, not to what a person actually is, but the collection of him in relevance with the space around him and the people living with him.
I first studied my life when it tested me in a practical way, the time when I was really broke and the time when the only one who can help me is to believe that there is something more than my senses.
They said that there are 4 different type of person, Introvert, extrovert, emotional, and rational.
I'm a rational introvert by nature. I prefer to be alone reading books than to go out with my friends. In every situation I mostly don't exhibit emotion and think first before attaching my feelings. I'm also not easily panicking even there is an emergency. The diagram above is the easiest way to differentiate people though you can also be a combination of more than 1 type. As a rational introverted person, you can see that I have a lot of way to comfort myself without going out of our house. I have a lot of books, painting materials, computer, eBooks etc. When I went to college, I can't get any motivation. My family cannot give financial support and the worst is even motivational support. I realized that finding someone or something that can motivate me is kinda hard thing to do, so what I did is to create a motivation by means of a habit and a force change of my personality. I read books that focuses in motivation. I downloaded audio books and played it uncountable times. The most played audio books that time for me is "100 ways to motivate yourself", I think I played it more than 100 times already, knowing that eBook is less than 2 hours long. When you're reading books, you'll realize how powerful it is to change your world view. It can literally change the shape of your brain and understanding of life. The problem about reading too much motivational books is that I'm loosing my hold in reality having more fantasies of mystical belief system. I literally tested what I learned from it to my actual life and I can say that it is very useful. When I'm in second year college I started become interested in history and business books. I started reading history of world war because it is related to the foundation of computers where it helps in the evolution of microchips and semiconductors. Upon reading it, it shows mo more about reality, it balances my perspective into what is real and what is not. I read books about world history and a lot of video documentaries even the famous life of Adolf Hitler and Genghis Khan, which somehow, you can't find his name in any text books in schools. In my last year in college I studied philosophy and its branches such as psychology, sociology, religions of man, mythology, etc. These opened my mind in various things and teach me about knowledge that were not absolute.Knowledge has no difference with different books that has the same topic yet only changing terminologies. I don't actually studied it unto it's deepest roots, I only studied the fundamentals yet holding it's important meanings. These books help me to understand life, in a different perception. There is something deeper that I can't explain like a vast ocean or like the maze of the Universe. Until now I'm still studying and experimenting in this what they so called life. Right now I'm observing it through other people. Sometimes I modify my personality to find how other will react upon it. There are times time that I will show to them that I am weak and stupid, there are times that I need to show to them that I am strong. Every time I test my personality and my behavioral acts and there response, I always planted the result into my mind. Life is a continuous learning and exploring about the synergy of living things and non living things. Unless you are dead already you can still consider your life as being a student of it. When the time comes that you're in the edge of closing your eyes you'll realize what have you learned and what you have done. In the end, the point is not actually what the output is, but if it makes you happy and worth it. . . and when it is closed already, the judgement is up to God. By: Alexies Iglesia |